I only saw bits and pieces of what happened, but it doesn't change one thing that anyone who is on the side of /fringe/ knows that defeatism is not acceptable.
If you truely believe in what you are doing, you don't EVER have to admit defeat. Admitting defeat while knowing the truth makes people question the truth.
I can understand if you don't want people to think of the Astral War or get involved since you are scared of taking responsibility if something happens to them, but it's not something you should ignore. Even talking from a Neutral perspective, if anything threatens humanity, it must be reasoned with or destroyed.
If we are going to be optimistic and think nothing bad is on the other side, you are just putting yourself at risk if things DO go wrong.
my 2c
>Is it hard to run a community where you have respect towards people regardless of faith?
Respect? You don't even listen to what you preach to others. Everyone in that group noticed how you only resorted to ad hominem to defame me, instead of ever addressing me. Yet you try to shove it onto me as if my "tone" was wrong. Everyone in that group that was present could verify this. You made a bad mistake, acted out of ego (ironic for someone who prides himself in being ego-less), and now try to frame me.
>worship Satan
This is just demonstrates yet again your futile attempts at pulling straws, just like you did in the group chat. I explained like three times in that group even how "worship of Satan" is misinformation. Satan DOES NOT WANT WORSHIP.
I know why you deleted the group. To clean all the logs of what you said. Too bad because I saved them, and everyone will be able to see. You clearly demonstrate to be not capable of leading a community. We need to talk about this, this is not the last.
>that awkward moment when the dude who seems to be talking crazy shit is the one behaving with a colder head
Guys hold me I don't know what's real anymore.
I always wondered how were you a mod with Alpam as a BO.
Two entities you invoked during the first AP session:
>Archangel Gabriel
>some Reptilian
Brother, all you'd have to do is not only teach people about the ego, but also about the shadow and the higher self. You blame everything on one thing and don't really focus on the other two parts of the soul.
You're a good person - you just do the same mistake literally everyone I know who has discovered a great truth that has changes his life for the better does: You tunnel vision on that truth and its perspective, closing your mind to everything else. Stay loyal to your believes if they stay loyal to you - but allow yourself to add new believes.
I don't think you should give up.
Mossa is not giving up. He changed the IRC and Discord because he doesn't want to waste time with a person that acts like Smiley and redo the same mistakes that lead to the community split that happened on 8ch's board.
You can connect to the IRC and reach him:
https://webchat.freenode.net/?nick=Seeker_..&channels=%23%23satoru&prompt=1
The two private sessions that Mossa provided also gives more insight into the subconscious, but not everyone has done those.
The second paragraph in your post perfectly describes Alpam's development.