/grave/ - The Graveyard

Good day /fringe/. Frustrated Neophyte here. I don't know how to convey this problem in few words, so i beg you to bear with me.

I've been having a hard time lately regarding my studies of the occult. I feel like everytime i make some sort of progress i lose it in a matter of days, having to start once again from the very beginning. I'm drifting on the different subjects and practices that are inside the neophyte folder and everytime i try to follow a structured process i realize i'm not able to complete it.

I want to do the things you guys are able to do: I want to be able to open my eyes to the mysteries of reality; I want to harden my willpower to the point where it becomes unbreakable; I want to enhance my imagination 'til i can manifest it on reality; I WANT TO SEE SOME FUCKING RESULTS DAMMIT. WHY CAN'T I CONCENTRATE? I'M A NEET I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO, THIS IS MY MAIN INTEREST RIGHT NOW AND I CAN'T EVEN GET PAST STEP FUCKING ONE

I feel hopeless /fringe/. You guys helped me recover some degree of control of my life and i don't want to lose it again.

>>156

> I'M A NEET I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO

There's your problem. Being a NEET is bad for your willpower. Get a voluntary job or take on some other obligation to get yourself into a routine of applying yourself.

This should have been posted in the questions thread btw.

>>157

>This should have been posted in the questions thread btw.

You're right, sorry about that. My mind is kind of hazy.

I'm thankful that you replied so quick, and i'll take your advice on consideration. i'm planning to get back to university next year and i'll have to find some sort of job or obligation in the meantime.

>>157

>This should have been posted in the questions thread btw.

This.