I've made good progress and no longer have any credible doubts about the existence of telekinesis. It's definitely real. Of course there's that creeping doubt that seeps in if I neglect to practice for a bit, but I know what I saw and felt. I should not doubt my memories. I had to try again just as I wrote this to make sure I wasn't just bullshitting myself.
I've been holding various things in my hands and trying to lift, tilt, or roll them. When trying to lift a coin or press it into my palm, I could feel a connection between me and the coin that exerted some pressure on my head. When trying to roll a pen around I found I could get results either by exerting force like I would with the coin or by simply willing it to roll, imagining how it would feel for the pen to move slightly on my hand. Of course, I do not trust that particular test much, my hand is not a level surface and I can't guarantee I didn't move, but I could tell when I was doing it telekinetically or the pen was rolling on its own. When the pen moved as a result of my efforts, I felt it both in my hand and in my head.
More reliably, I was able to lift a penny on the tip of my finger enough that it started rattling about, and I was able to tip a quarter off my finger. I was also able to tilt back and forth a roll of electrical tape that was balanced on two fingers. Interestingly, the weight of the object does not seem to matter all that much, it's clear I'm not applying a simple force. I can lift approximately half the weight of a dime, half the weight of a metal pen, and maybe 1/4 the weight of the roll of tape, though I feel a stronger pressure with heavier objects.
The pressure of the connection is so light with small coins that I prefer not to use them, I have trouble sensing what's going on. I am a blind man fumbling in the dark here, I need the sensation of the object in my hand to tell if I am getting results or not, which is why I have been avoiding the classic tests of telekinesis like spinning a foil or pushing over a piece of paper. I have to search within myself for the power to do these things and when I am getting no feedback, I have no idea where I am and can't even begin. I hope to eventually make this second-nature and just know where to go.
I've found I can work more easily with the object in my hand and my arm outstretched above my head, my whole arm fills with
something and I can immediately get right to the strongest lifting I am capable of. I don't have to worry about lifting in the right direction if it's directly above my head. It doesn't actually strengthen it though. As an added bonus, all the blood rushing out of my arm makes my fingers incapable of movement that could screw with the results without my knowledge.
I don't know if it's energy in my arm or what since I am not projecting force from my arm. Even if I attempt to it's clear the power is still coming from my head.
If anyone else is interested in trying this, don't stare at the object, you end up trying to use your eyes to move it which does not work. Also keep
https://freedomboard.kirara.ca/fringe/res/580.html in mind. You only need a slight window for you to get tiny results, which convinces you a little more, enabling you to get better results, and so on, but you can easily slide back if you let doubt take over again, then when you aren't immediately able to get the results you got before you will convince yourself you were deluding yourself and forget about this forever.
