Wizard Survival 08/09/13 (Fri) 00:33:54 No.1111
I have been able to do more and more amazing things with magic
it is incredibly powerful for me.
There are two things I am wondering about and have been for weeks now that I really can't make up my mind about:
1. Does all the power reside within me or is it in the demons/entities I associate with? Should I cast them all aside and rely only upon my own will, energy, and intuition to advance forward? Are the demons just parasiting off of me waiting for their chance to possess me fully when I am in trouble?
2. Will I be killed by other wizards for using my magic to destroy my enemies, gain things for myself, etc.? Does this mean I have to stay completely secret less someone connects the events I manifest with me then I become a target for other entities both human and hyperdimensional?
I have a really shit life. It's getting better thanks to magic but about half of everything I do is dark/evil in some sense. I violate freewill, steal energy from others, control their minds, etc.
The rest of what I do isn't really helpful either it's mostly stuff that's just neutral like meditation, astral projection, etc. I can't heal people (or even myself). I can't help them. I don't even want to, mundanes disgust me, and they don't want to be helped.
I'm getting paranoid though. I don't know what happened to some of the other wizards I knew, they just disappeared, and I know there's bound to be some faggot white knight moral crusader or government type or even just other dark wizards that don't want competitors that probably will fuck my shit up given the chance. I reckon the majority of fools with high morals won't actually know enough to be a real threat but I'm not sure that there aren't those out there who'd kill me.
I'm very glad the majority of the population doesn't believe in magic and doesn't burn witches anymore. I doubt that means I'm in the clear though.
I want to keep pushing things and bringing more chaos into this world but I'm probably going to die for it.
08/09/13 (Fri) 04:49:36 No.1114
>>1111
Personally, I won't be hunting you down unless you hamper my efforts. I also don't think the demons/entities you work with are the source of your strength. Sometimes they may assist but they always serve their own interests. I'd say you're better off without them.
>I want to keep pushing things and bringing more chaos into this world but I'm probably going to die for it.
You'll die anyway, what you need to figure out is how you want to leave this world. A great many folk who have the ability to do amazing things let their chance slide and fade away into obscurity after death. History has no place for the mediocre masses. Chaos is necessary for the transformation to come, there is no Harmony without Chaos. The Glory of Chaos is Eternal, leave a legacy.
As for those others who will oppose you, destroy them. Leave none to tell the tale of their meddling with your Great Work. You may think they are the most powerful being in the universe and maybe they are, but just like mundanes they do not have true pride. Believe in your own strength and lay waste to the fools who dare to stand in your way.
08/09/13 (Fri) 13:11:27 No.1116
>>1114
>As for those others who will oppose you, destroy them. Leave none to tell the tale of their meddling with your Great Work. You may think they are the most powerful being in the universe and maybe they are, but just like mundanes they do not have true pride. Believe in your own strength and lay waste to the fools who dare to stand in your way.
This is the most self-aggrandizing nonsense I have ever read. You are too self-important. There is no power in acts that arise from the bolstering of yourself as an "important individual"
no matter how adept you become with your magic you will simply be trapping yourself in another layer of the proverbial onion. Just look what happened to the ancient sorcerers. If you seek to make war on others you will never find freedom.
For you, OP:
>1. Does all the power reside within me or is it in the demons/entities I associate with?
It depends on how much personal power you have stored, how you've implemented it, and how much help you're allowing yourself to receive from the inorganic beings. You should be able to tell the difference between when you are using your own energy and the times you are being assisted. If you are unsure where your power is coming from then you shouldn't be allowing any external interference yet. Storing personal power requires a very rigid and disciplined lifestyle. If you haven't been practicing living like a warrior the chances of it being borrowed energy from your "demons" is very high, especially if you've been soliciting their help by intending communication with them.
>Should I cast them all aside and rely only upon my own will, energy, and intuition to advance forward?
You should cast them all aside until you have acquired more knowledge, stored more power, and finished completing and learning how to use your dreaming body (energy body). The forces you are playing with play for keeps, and their price is your energy and your freedom. They are always poised to teach, but they cater their instruction to the nature of the human participant. If you are in it for self-important reasons it will be a disastrous affair for you - which is why I've emphasized the slow process of storing your power by living impeccably instead of the instant gratification of seeking power elsewhere.
>Are the demons just parasiting off of me waiting for their chance to possess me fully when I am in trouble?
They bask in our energy output like we bask in the sun's light. Think of your feelings and energy as their fuel, much like the rays of the sun fuel organic life in this layer. You can have symbiotic relationships with them, but they aren't ultimately necessary for a sorcerer's definitive journey. In fact, most of the time having relations with them will just complicate things for you. I suppose it depends on the dispositions and predilections of the individuals involved. The old sorcerers loved their allies and became hopelessly entangled with them. Many even modeled their energy bodies after them and extended the longevity of their own consciousnesses beyond our comprehension. Here's the unfortunate part: There is a threshold humans reach after storing our energy to it's full capacity, after which we must get a boost from the inorganic realm to take us further. This is only really applicable to acts of sorcery that involve things like:
Accessing the non-human bands of the unknown in dreaming (or astral projection as this board tends to call it)
and
Silly shit that doesn't have much practical application like levitating objects at will in normal day-to-day life. (It sounds cool, but in the big picture levitating objects is a grand waste of precious energy.)
Remember: the ultimate act of sorcery is to come to the totality of yourself. As far as I know the inorganic beings can't do much to help us reach that goal, which essentially makes them useless. Having a relationship with them is very "expensive" in energetic terms, and you'll need all the energy you can get (and more!) to arrive at the totality of yourself before you die.
>2. Will I be killed by other wizards for using my magic to destroy my enemies, gain things for myself, etc.? Does this mean I have to stay completely secret less someone connects the events I manifest with me then I become a target for other entities both human and hyperdimensional?
It is easier for an average man to kill a sorcerer than for another sorcerer to kill a sorcerer. Lol. If you use your own magic for harming others and for self gain, you will be damning yourself to a fate worse than death. If you behave that way other practitioners will be the least of your worries in this extremely predatory Universe.
Read "The Art of Dreaming" by Carlos Castaneda. That will give you the information you're looking for
