I've been studying magick since I was 12 (I'm 24 now).
I'm currently being dragged into some kind of hell dimension by a xenodimensional entity that's clearly beyond third density. Stupid bastard is hijacking my CNS systematically, fucking with my brain, dissolving my endocrine glands, damaging my chakras, posessing me to do terrible things etc., etc. People have died as a result of other people catching whatever I have; friends committing suicide and such, and my personality, my real one, comes and goes.
It's trying to damage my mitochondria as well as the other parts of my body and convince me that I have no ability to do magick anymore, tries to convince me that there's microchips and such in my brain (which feel real, but might just be something higher-density trying to fuck with me), tries to keep me from feeling emotions at all or accessing higher consciousness.
I've been moved to alternate timelines in higher dimensions where I'm not 100% in the same reality as I am now.
I really, really need my physical body restored, third eye reopened, chakras fixed, emotions and endocrine glands fixed, and control of my willpower/auric field again.
My whole body feels like it's on fire sometimes, like it's trying to punish me, it uses mind control techniques on me and is trying to control my CNS completely so that I lose all free will.
I'm not in the same reality I was in a few years ago, when this started, even though many of the same people/objects/patterns are still here. The energy in my body is configured all wrong, with chakras damaged and missing, and new ones where there aren't supposed to be any, and basically a body-wide "leash"/headgear thing (or the illusion of one - I think it's just a fucked-up energy configuration designed to look like an inescapable trap) that tries to keep me from opening my third eye or manipulating energy, and even dulls my emotions, horomones, and neurotransmitters.
I'm aware that consciousness creates reality, and even if there are certain patterns in EM fields of the human body and/or DNA that enable light generation, creation, etc., they aren't ultimate, and even those things have their own etheric form bodies and whatnot.
But I don't know what to do, and I can't fucking take it anymore, and time is running out. Does anyone here have any ideas?