>>86001
The universe, of which you are part of does not explicitly want to "hurt you", nor keep you ignorant.
>>86002
I wouldn't be so harsh, realize that you're being taught a lesson. You may not like it, but it is a lesson nonetheless, and how you respond to this challenge will determine whether the outcome is positive or negative, no matter how minute and imperceptible it might seem.
>Gnosticism because the idea that god is a dick and created this hell world that we must escape through sacred knowledge appeals to me because my life sucks.
Think about it this way, the universe (us/god) is in the process of self-creation, bootstrapping itself incrementally through memetic manifestation.
We are part of a god creating ourselves, and all the things, no matter how shitty they are must exist just as much as the good things. The secret is, that YOU have the power to change the course of your time in the body you presently occupy.
The universe/you wants sacred knowledge to be used to create, the x-factor is the body you occupy and the mind that modulates your consciousness.
The universe does not want to keep you from anything, but as I've mentioned we all experience lives both good and bad, because they must both exist in all the forms they may manifest.
Unplug from your ego and face your challenges and keep grasping for the power the universe ultimately WANTS you to have. Don't be discouraged by bumps in the road, don't spite god/yourself because of your circumstances.