>>81252
Its natural to feel that.
Its two main things to consider.
First, you have unresolved issues. You have to face them, head on, conciously.
You have to sit down, and meditate on why you were hurt, why you were scared. Understand the reasons. But also do not forget your emotions. While meditating, let yourself feel fear, cry if you want, whine. By doing this you will releasing the tension that you have around those areas. This is the process of self healing. Identify problem areas, and spend time nurturing, encouraging them, just like you would a child.
The second part is creating new points of attraction. You are not used to feeling courage, so in a sense, you can not connect to it.
However, if you consciously start connecting, feeling, identifying what is courage, how it feels in your body(feeling it, or "seeing" it), you will start accepting it more and more.
Where attention goes, energy flows. As above, so bellow. Use these principles to navigate.
Slowly, the parts of you that are fractured and that you are resisting will start "aligning" in a sense, unifying.
This is when your courage will come to file, not by forcing it in, but by simply accepting it in.