Magic doesn't work for me. It's been more than two years of trying. Still doesn't. I read shit. I did shit. I dreamed. I recorded. I performed. I meditated. I became aware. I relaxed. I focused. I energized. Are you all lying? Like are the few of you that seem believable on here, are you people really dedicated liars or just mistaking mainstream scientifically-explainable events for legitimate magic? I did it all and it has just proven to not work over and over. Give me a straight-forward method. Stop jumping around saying "you should read this you should read that you should perform this ritual or this specific way of living for the next 6 months." Just give me a simple straight-forward method already! Christ! All you people do is roleplay!
It's not even an issue of not fitting the culture I love memes I love magic I surrounded myself with magical items in my life because I just like the style and meaning to them. It seems giving a shit about magic, really trying my all, ISN'T good enough. Asking God/THE ALL doesn't work, relying on myself doesn't work, trying multiple different methods doesn't work. What the FUCK is the basis for performing legitimate magic!? No more philosophical bullshit I am very educated in ethics and have always had a strong intuition of right versus wrong so don't water down whatever illusion of magic you might be promoting with "oh you gotta be a really good person or you shouldn't be learning this" I'm taken care of give me the abilities already! What do you want an essay? I'm just a guy who loves writing and memes -give me a method of learning legitimate magic beyond the mundane science that's legitimately meaningful and actually doable!
I am not asking to be spoon-fed here so I am going to pan it all out real plain here so you people may understand. I am a college student who writes and memes and does some art on a regular basis. Magic helps these things because they are all idealistic things to do as is magic due to its meaningful interesting nature. Now I have enjoyed magic culturally and philosophically but I am no longer satisfied with the simply enjoyable thoughts and desire to experience real magic. If you have all been lying or delusional 100% in your entirety I will not hate you all or hold it against you, but I need to honestly know if you are all a great heaping wad of posers enjoying a high-brow convincing roleplay/delusion or if there is actually something to be sought here.
Simplicity can be the greatest complexity. With this in mind I ask someone give me a true simple route to performing legitimate magic not rooted in how 'fun' or 'meaningful' or 'pleasing' it is to go through the routine but rooted in the legitimate methodical procedure of producing magical results. I would like to reach enlightenment, illumination, bend statistical chance, astral project, know of an afterlife, become connected with THE ALL, communicate with otherworldly beings, etcetera. I've tried it all without minor results. Give me the truth of magic or justify my ceaseless mockery of it. I am immensely bothered nothing has come of my attempts no matter any means I have tried.