I'm being abducted on my dreams. Whenever I find myself in a shady situation, I'll often become lucid, try to fly and end up paralyzed in midair while being promptly deprived from all of my senses. Sometimes I'd have just enough time to look upwards, and I'd see a giant, translucent ship floating several miles over me. Every time I got caught, I'd try to pray to God or Jesus for help while the bastards messed up my mind to misremember the prayer or made me unable to think at all.
I don't have any recollection of operating tables, but I do remember vividly nearly every time they fed on me. Most precisely, on my sexual energy. You read that right, I've got alien succubi. I feel like I'm not in control of myself when they're near me, it's like I've got this unruly desire to ravage and my body moves on its own accord. And that's only what I'm able to remember, God only knows what else they have been doing to me. I always wake up tired and in a state of overall lassitude. Most of the time, I feel like shit.
I've been looking for a way to get rid of these scoundrels, but there's a little issue: my mind eye is blind. Every method I've found requires at least a modicum of mental visualization. I don't know if you're familiar with it; I'm talking about entering a deep hypnotic trance in order to connect with your soul, remove any "implants" they place in your astral body and finally teaching your soul to not allow any entities to take advantage of it. I've already tried psychedelics (keep in mind, I'm a natural hardhead, so I get few visuals) for this purpose, and while I get CEVs, whenever I try to meditate, I'll suddenly start seeing them. Grey/insect heads, repitilian/feline eyes, and familiar music would start to play on my head in order to distract me. Whiles psychs make me able to "see" (barely), they also make me more susceptible to their presence. They are a double-edged sword for that purpose, but so far I've had no luck.
I don't know what to do. I don't know anyone in person who I can trust to help me out with this. What can I do in order to open my third eye? I'm open to any suggestions.