Magickal "esotericism" is similar to the technology that developed radio technology, except instead you are using your own body to transmit electro-magnetic waves to create magickal effects and manipulate destiny. Its as physical as anything physical just like how radio technology is as physical as a car. So esotericism isn't gay. Please do more research before talking about the subject. We don't like our board being sullied with uninformed opinions, we don't have all the answers but we try to do research before posting. OP you seem like a smart guy so its surprising you would post something so uninformed.