Pick your own library and initiate yourself. There is nothing special about any ones persons library except how it relates to them. My person suggestion would be Liber Kaos, and then Liber Null and Psychonaut by Peter J Carroll. He takes a scientific and non- dogmatic view on magick. Liber Kaos starts off with about 50-60 pages about quantam theory. He even outlines equations to determine how succesful your spells will be.
Be warned though, not only will it take time, but if you are serious about it it will work. It wilk also permanently change your mind and the way it functions. Once you pass a certain point there is no going back.
Be safe, be brave, and above all, have fun.