/fringe/ - Fringe

>>118538

I've been hitting plateaus in my efforts to get fit and I am having trouble finding the time and motivation to git gud at drawing.

>>118539

Why do you not want to be fit? If your body fills up with blockages, your spirit won't work effectively in the body.

What is your weaknesses with drawing? Create challenges to test your exact weakness and practice them 30 times each. Is it shader practice, color practice, line practice, symmetry or overall composure? Is it your imagination? See in your mind what you want to see in the canvas and adjust until it happens.

Hitting too many obstacles of all kinds. Not just me, but parents too. I'm used to occasional waves of bad luck but this trough is one long wavelength. I just want more free time but I'll get some in a few weeks once the semester ends. I've been in worse times before, so I'm just riding it out.

>>118543

You are very unspecific. You should research discipline, both mental and physical. If you don't believe that you can perform, that is what you have to change: the belief.

Everyone is struggling, it's not only you.

I'll be back in 7 hours.

My neck and upper back are suddenly very tense. I started to lift for one month but ive been postponing it for several, after some long holidays in my country.

Been getting better at meditation as a routine and studying as a pleasure, though.

I'm alive brother. Equalization is taking place. I'm on the path. Accepting terrifying truths, and coping with them, wielding it all, arising.

>>118538

is this a request for me to blogpost about my issues?.

I'm doing okay. Making good money. Earned a nice chunk with cryptocurrency.

But I have left my relationship behind. We broke up 3 years ago but got back together for a month last year.

I mainly wanted sex from her. She doesn' really interest me beyond that.

So we broke up…

Just having a hard time meeting the right person now, also having issues with weed.

I meditate and workout well but weed tends to hinder my progress. Though if I haven't smoked a good few weeks. It can really help me get back on the ground. though it kills my dreams. I don't want to stop for good but I also don't want to be the daily addict, or fuck up my lungs beyond saving.

I'm 27 now and I' haven't settled down. I just haven't met the right girl, or when I did in the past I just didn't see that I was liked. I did have some girlfriends. though…

I don't know I got everything except a woman right now.

I guess I just have to keep going.

Dating really sucks though

>>118546

Use your hands and slap your skin or ask someone else to do it. Massage also helps. You still hold grief and lies which won't help you.

>>118547

We were always on the path.

>>118550

"The drunkard shall not enter the kingdom of heaven"

Eventually, you'll get to a point where weed doesn't help, but it keeps you sedated in a way where you feel unmotivated. This is the sign to quit. Cannabis can only lift the energy to a specific point in the body, depending on its strain.

Loving another is difficult for you at the moment, since you have to learn how to love yourself and the world. I recommend researching consciousness from speeches online and following simple meditations.

You believe you want a woman because you lack completion, but you need to be complete yourself before you meet another complete being.

>>118554

Thanks my friend, ill try to find a specialist to know my type. A synchronicity: I'm from Brasil and one of my great friends is living in Manaus right now, amazons capital.

Oh look, another "muh 2012 prohecy" thread.

>>118560

>not realizing the true significance of the year 2012

Oh look, another lazy post.

>>118538

I could use some insight. I have gained much perspective and awareness of things I had never knew existed. The pure abstraction of everything, and the enlightenment that comes with it is pure bliss.. But, I have a stumbling block which I have not been able to pass on my own. No matter how much progress I make after a while what was a pleasant feeling starts to turn into extreme pressure. I have noted that the pressure seems to go from a pleasant 'sore muscle' sort of feeling to a more extreme pressure that does not feel so nice depending on whether or not I have been able to perform my works that have come to me. But, at times, the pressure gets so intense that it becomes mind numbing, and makes me sleepy as shit, to the point of making it almost impossible to write this post.

What I have not been able to figure out is at times it seems as though rather than it being related to me doing my works it might have some sort of cycle to it. I was thinking its possibly related to the moon but it has not seemed to correspond to any particular phase of the moon.

Is there something I am missing? What else could this be? It's been present since I first started feeling sensitive to things, and since then I have had medical tests that came up with nothing.

It almost feels like severe growing pains or something, like it feels like my skull is going to change shape or something.

>>118550

Drop the weed. It makes you forgetful.

>>118562

2012 was a great year.

none of you are my brother or sister, you are just using words to try to manipulate me into thinking you have my back so you have more time to backstab me

nice try kike

>>118566

kill yourself you fucking jewish faggot

Be less greedy. It makes you an asshole douche faggot.

Oh wait, you aren't going to limit your jewishness, you just tell other people what to do!

Don't ever fucking suggest weed is a problem anywhere near me again. You are going to die from cancer and then reincarnate then die in a car crash for wasting my time you fucking loser. How fucking dare you use my time to shill against a fucking plant. You think you can just write words that make my eyes go "oh there might be something here" Then randomly, without every meeting somebody, you use words and my time to decide that a plant and not the world is a problem?

>>118586

please stop writing like smileberg, jeez i thought weed made people more chill.

imho any kind of 'helping substance" of any kind is retarded, same goes for subliminal stuff.

you need water, good, non-poisenous food, and sunlight. using anything extra as a crutch for hard work and commitment is fucking retarded.

now either put some fucking effort into your magic or kill yourself, how slow or fast i don't care. just make a fucking choice between the two and stop hovering over both of them.

>>118593

if i'm being honest, i phrased that incorrectly, it wasn't a suggestion, it was a choice which i explained to him. if you see someone with a metaphorical gun in their mouth without them realizing it. you can give them the choice to pull the trigger or take the gun out of their mouth and continue living. i simply attempted to make him aware of this choice.

>>118612

Just set up material goals (better job, sex life, love, money, travel, whatever) and try to accomplish them with the help of magic. You will be taught what you need along the way.

Don't fall into the trap so many here have fallen into. Don't become an armchair occultist that "rejects the material degenerate world" and instead withers away by doing nothing but reading all day.

You accumulate information.

Knowledge comes from understanding that information.

And wisdom comes from acting upon that knowledge.

Most get stuck at knowledge and die.

Lately, I'm fine really, stop masturbating 309 days ago, and although I do not meditate very much, I've learned a lot along the way, but …

Sometimes I feel trapped, I am a hikkikkomori for more years than I remember (I am 23 at the moment) I live in my mother's house, I have never worked, I am a virgin who has never had a girlfriend nor has anyone ever been interested romantically in, and although my relationship with my mother is good, for about 309 days, my uncle lives with us, my mother is hardly home, so basically I live with him.

He has nowhere to go, is in divorce proceedings, and has a pretty big debt, is basically a homeless if not for my mother, but is older so it is extremely unlikely that he will find work.

The main problem is his attitude, he is a man anchored in anger and depression, a narcissist who, like all narcissists, deep down feels a deep inferiority.

I do not have studies, and I live in a country where it is impossible to find work, even for graduates.

So I tried to manifest earning money in the lottery so I would buy a house for my uncle near his daughter, my mother will not have to work anymore and she will be able to rest, at the same time, she will be able to take care of my pet turtle, and so I will finally be able to become the wanderer (or hermit) of the forest that I've always wanted to be, and feel free.

I really do not know what else to do, I have not been able to help him emotionally (although I have redpilled both) and that is what he really needs.

I just want to be alone and focus on the work.

>>118538

My biggest obstacle is of comfyness. Survival where I live requires close to no effort so I have loads of free time. Said free time is mostly spent in front of a screen. Watching, listening, browsing, drifting. Everything but doing. I'm mostly stuck but sometimes I escape and it's better but I always seem to go back to being stuck. I don't know what to do with my time. I can't find the reason. I'm not particular interested in my education but I can't figure out what else to do. I eat well, I go to the gym and I keep my appartment clean. Then I don't know what to do. My needs are taken care of but I need more. I want to want more. I wanna learn to play the harmonica but I seem to lack the discipline. I wanna take my education more serious but I seem to lack the discipline. I wanna start doing rituals and get deeper into the occult but something seems to be holding me back. I found the pill and I chose to take it but it's stuck in my throat. Hand me a glass of water, please

for you all

may it help you.

harmony is made to look like chaos.

harmony and balance exist without chaos, but chaos does not exist without balance and harmony to support it.

without harmony to create a balanced order that can continue reacting passionately, there is no chaos.

There is no strength or weakness without power.

There is no fear or courage without strength and weakness.

There is ignorance in the strong fighting the weak if the weak are good.

There is ignorance in the weak fighting the strong if the strong are good.

There is ignorance in believing that good is the same for everyone.

There is no dark or light, ying or yang; there is only God.

doubt not and despair not; instead only fearless and unbreakable faith.

there is no serenity and peace without passion and emotion; without caring about something, there is no reason to do or not do.

imperfection is a lie. There is only Perfection.

There is no life or death, there is only God.

Through God There is always potential to grow and improve.

Through God I am guided on the path.

Through following the path I gain improvement.

Through improvement I grow.

Through growth I gain knowledge.

Through knowledge I gain wisdom.

Through wisdom I perceive the truth.

perceive the truth; perceive God.

Sorry, this is the updated version:

harmony is made to look like chaos.

harmony and balance exist without chaos, but chaos does not exist without balance and harmony to support it.

without harmony to create a balanced order that can continue reacting passionately, there is no chaos.

There is no strength or weakness without power.

There is no fear or courage without strength and weakness.

There is ignorance in the strong fighting the weak if the weak are good.

There is ignorance in the weak fighting the strong if the strong are good.

There is ignorance in believing that good is the same for everyone.

There is no dark or light, ying or yang; there is only God.

There is no rulebook or religions; there is only God.

Read through corruption; Read through wisdom; distill the drops of truth, distill the drops of yourself.

doubt not and despair not; instead only fearless and unbreakable faith.

there is no serenity and peace without passion and emotion; without caring about something, there is no reason to do or not do.

imperfection is a lie. There is only Perfection.

There is no life or death, there is only God.

Through God There is always potential to grow and improve.

Through God I am guided on the path.

Through following the path I gain improvement.

Through improvement I grow.

Through growth I gain knowledge.

Through knowledge I gain wisdom.

Through wisdom I perceive the truth.

perceive the truth; perceive God.

>>118622

Why limit yourself to only manifesting money through lottery? There are bound to be less risky ways that you just aren't aware of, so if you just focus on the broad idea of earning money in an easy and positive/beneficial way, it'll probably take a lot less time and effort.

>>118586

Merlin will never let you take my virginity!

>>118622

you should try something smaller than the lottery first, much smaller.

also, meditate every day, and start becoming more physically active.

you don't need weigthts or a subscribtion to some gym in order to work out.

There are no obstacles in my life anymore cause i choose some time ago to change my way of perception. After a serious personal happening (got drugged/robbed/physically abused on vacation) God spoke to me and I internally realized many things which lead to a complete mental, psychological and physical change. To this time i nearly lived 15years vegetarian (but my diet wans't really healthy), switched to vegan organic diet, stopped drinking alcohol, returned to God, began to pray, meditate and contemplate on a daily basis, began to care about myself with attentiveness. This caused my whole exterior life to change, it was a matter of a few months and I was living in a new environment in a completly different life. I myself feel like I'm looking at someone else if i think about my 'old-self', which is pretty funny and stunning. Now I feel like I finally don't block the flow of life but let it play on myself, i'm on the right path and this is the only thing i need to know, there is no pressure of developing, there is no need for rush, there is no need for beeing adhered, there is this sense of equanimity and loving kindness. So things you might percept as obstacles are nothing more than a needed cause and can therefore transform in direct opposite.

>>118662

>>118633

I have a reason to think big

It's about (((them))), i notice something

You see, ALL news are fabricated, every one of them, it´s not like they just lie or manipulate, it about an illusory reallity.

Actors, Masons and Intelligence agents

The numbers, they use it for communication (and some symbols)

Always the same numbers

9

11

13

17

22

33

101

137

I may not know enough of numerology and kabbalah to understand completely the codes, but i came up to a theory.

(((They))) rarely work, but always have money

then, how you give money to every one of your (((tribe))), around the world, in a legal way, so they don't have to work at all: Lottery

It's easy money, legal, and the slaves pay for it

I looked for the numbers, and they were just there, everywhere.

You only can win if you know how to play the game

It´s easy know how to play if you made the game.

In the lotteries of prefixed numbers, it is almost impossible, because when I get to the numbers, I can not access the ticket, they have always been sold.

But I get the numbers right, if I could have accessed the Christmas ticket for my number, only for the last number I could have won 200,000

I switched to the cumulative prize lottery and I'm working on it.

It's a mixture of my own system and reality creation.

BTW i'm sorry for my broken english and my sometimes chaotic mind

History is also a lie

137 chases me all the time

>>118631

nobody has anything to say about this? I'm hurt.

>>118766

I think the gray jedi are severely cucked or severely misrepresented and misunderstood. not all gray jedi are exactly the same, and the philosophy and code that is pushed onto all of them as a stereotype implies that they are all good but intentionally "just a little bit evil" on purpose just to keep the balance. like they will shake the hands of five people and then punch the other five people in the face for no reason just because it's fair or "equal" basically SJW jedi. that is disgusting, and not really what the gray jedi are about. remember, it's called a JEDI. jedi are good. (unless they are corrupt, like most jedi) which is really sad.

it's a huge mess really. I strive to be better than black, gray, or white.

>>118620

What should I read as a beginner? There isn't any definite way but I would like to know where to start

>>118768

In this context "Jedi" does not mean "user of the force who follows the ancient tradition of the Je'daii Order", instead is a word of general use for "user of the force".In the same way that a user of the dark side of the force is not necesarilly a Sith, but generally speaking, we can call it "Sith" even if dont follow the ancient tradition or culture of the old race of Sith.

A true grey Jedi is a user of the force, who independently of being part of an order or a tradition, that doesn't limit him, he is not coarted by the dogma of any order but by his experience, and is not afraid o using any part of the force that bring him balance, because for him there is no dark or light side, there is just the force and bringin balance to him is bringin balance to the force, for his will and the force is the same.

Thinking "I was nice to x number of people, i need to equally be an a-hole to the same amount of people" is childish thinking by a no very smart kid.

>>118779

Okay my friend, then why do people go around posting "the official gray jedi code" that says things here

>>118766

like:

>"I will do what I must to keep the balance, there is no good without evil"

this implies that they believe evil is necessary for good to exist, this is false, and this

>>118631

disproves that.

I'm saying that some fake assholes are forcing the gray jedi to have an inherently evil secret sith or worse code built into their code but subtly

>>118768

Are the Jedi good? Are the Sith evil?

>>118780

>the official gray jedi code

It´s in the comics, and in some way in animation and video games, so… it's actually oficial.

But It's fine if you don't like tho.

>evil is necessary for good to exist

Well that's truth, it's pretty obvious actually.

If you dont have shadow, you have no friggin idea of what light is.

The whole point is to overcome that duality.

>and this >>118631 >disproves that.

I'm afraid that's just your opinion

>>118781

basically most jedi are corrupt religious fanatic groups while most sith are dark edgy fedora atheists. the gray jedi like kyle katarn and quoi gon gin are total bros on the true path. but the "gray jedi code" is totally cucked.

>>118785

sure knowing right and wrong is helpful in larning which is which but if you know which is which and you get rid of evil, and keep the knowledge- you can have good without evil. if it's done right, like in heaven. (but basically can only work in heaven)

>>118796

The Sith, to me, seemed more opened to the freedom of expression, while the Jedi were clearly more oppressive in beliefs because of their rigid traditions. So it was more like left hand versus right hand philosophies rather than good versus evil. I never watched the new trilogy, so maybe this has changed.

The word sith is Celtic in origin for fairy. But not no modern fairy, as fairies in Celtic mythology would capture, enslave, and sometimes sacrifice people. Given that the Jedi are an obvious mix of Templar and samurai, I'm assuming George Lucas had a Catholic upbringing. The Grey Code looks a bit Taoist to me.

As a Sith you can be everything from light to dark (individualist) but as Jedi you are to obey the strict rules of the order (collectivist) because the Jedi want to prevent Dark Side thoughts from ever manifesting among their ranks.

My biggest problems currently are laziness, a lack of will to live, immaturity, suicidal thoughts, never staying on any path for long, perversion, anger at the world, self-hatred, signing a contract of what I think is servitude with a being I have identified as Xolotl (don't know if that's good or bad or neutral really but it's on my mind regardless) and doubts creeping into my mind no matter what path I try to follow.

>>118696

you misunderstand, i never suggested you don't try to win a lottery /fringe/ style eventually, but working on these powers is like lifting weight. you start small and work your way up. do not attempt to rush these things.

>>118830

I understand, please forgive my rushness, but i don't know other way, that's why i give everything to one chance.

I´am learning from the numbers, feeling them, i seek patterns and things like that.

I lack faith in myself. I have never done anything of which I can be proud of, I've done drugs, engaged in degenerate sexual behavior and even though I no longer continue doing them everybody knows that I did and I'm forever labeled as a cokehead nazi faggot. My lack of self confidence makes me sexually unattractive and socially awkward, moreso because I am not ugly and I am very wealthy which either puzzles people, deters them or makes them want to take advantage of me in some way. Im in a regressive feedback loop of depression and low willpower which in the end makes me not want to anything ever. How you like them apples?

>>118853

Jack?

>>118801

the sith did a much better job of being "expressive" at least in some ways but they were also needlessly destructive to the point of just insanity. it would be one thing if they expressed themselves, but like the dark edgy fedora atheist, they basically have a blind hatred for everyone and everything even themselves which was very self defeating. even the official gray jedi code is cucked because it's just another sith code in disguise, and fully fails to represent kyle katarn and qui gon gin.

>>118811

that's one very interesting way of looking at it. do you know /fringe/ has better star wars discussions than /sw/? it's pretty funny.

I understand why both groups feel the need to think the way they do, but it's also stupid because of this simple question:

>why can't you love the force first (God), love yourself second, and then love friends and family third?

you could have the best parts of the sith and jedi code with some other good additions without any of the bad parts and then base your decisions in a balance between love and logic.

>>118822

anon take a look at these threads/posts ok? It will set you on a better path. the only one that "owns" you is God. God lovingly owns us all, and we're good students and slaves (but in a good way)

let me know if it made you feel good, because it makes me feel good to know that you felt good. suggestions and complaints are also appreciated to help me grow and become better.

>>>/rel/2784 (my thread)

>>>/rel/2795 (my post contributing to another thread)

>>118631 (my post in THIS current thread we are in right now)

I hope this helps you.

>>118853

please please try this. don't overlook it. if you try anything at least once, try this too.

>>118863

>>118863

Earlier I contemplated the idea of god becoming man, shown in stories such as the one about Jesus Christ, in order to better understand man, his struggles, his position, his evils, his goods, and so on. It occurred to me how deeply and truly caring that is and how God might not have truly understood what it FEELS like to be a human until he walked in ones shoes, even if he knew all about them. I cried a little after that, from the beauty of it all. If there is even the slightest grain of truth in any of those tales, then that is truly hopeful and wondrous. I'll definitely look into the all of the stuff that your linking when I have the time, and I will at least try and see how that works for me. You may not save me at the end of the day, friend, but you have at least shown me a potential path out, and for that alone you receive my thanks.

>>118861

Qui Gon was in a league of his own, a Jedi among Jedi.

>>118891

>Star Wars seem to be more important than your ignorance. What if the same time and devotion for fiction could be had in inquiries of self? Then this conversation would not have occurred.

t. bullshit occultist LARPer

>>118881

I try my best anon. remember, God that is all knowing would already know what everything feels like, God which puts every thought into everyone's minds. only an imperfect human being would desire with such great ego to be known as God.

>>118882

>best actor

>best jedi

why isn't keeanu reeves in any starwars movies with him? would have been great tbh.

>>118891

starwars is always a good coversation spicer-upper that doesn't distrupt any conversation it's involved in too much, while also contributing to it a bit. much cross philosophical discussion to be had there is.

>>118946

If Hugo Weaving was in Star Wars, would you like to see him as Jedi or Sith?

>>118974

both, or gray.

>>118945

Try quantum AI or collective unconscious

>>118994

explain?

>>118822

There are many paths, but there's only one that's worth taking. Follow natural law. All it really means is to not take that which isn't yours to take. If you do this then by definition every action you take will be righteous, as in you have the right to do it. This applies to all living things though, not just humans.

My ears have been really bothering me lately.

I´ve got a loud ringing in my left ear, aswell as sensitivity to sound.

I find it hard to think clearly because of the ringing.

also Im worried about the whole situation.

>>118538

>There's a coming uphill that will be the "Great Filter" of our species.

We control the weather. This isn't debatable anymore. Any such "great filter" is created by men on purpose. We changed the climate on purpose, it's creating better weather. Scaremongering is just "problem reaction solution" to manufacture consent for Carbon Tax (when H20 is #1 greenhouse gas).

Wise up to weather warfare

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7ktpNzvxJo8PHD0bLl5K-Q

…Or fuck off.

>>119346

>Follow natural law. All it really means is to not take that which isn't yours to take.

That's not a natural law. Does a falcon say, "Gee, I better not take that bunny, it's not mine"? No.

Everything I see is mine. That is the natural law.

>>120496

>>120536

>da joos

oh no it's retarded