I had an occult experience a couple years ago that I'd like to talk about. I consider it to be my first supernatural experience, and up to this point I had been more of a 'skeptic' than a believer in anything that could be considered magical.
My research began with digging into the history of the swastika (and sun wheels, anything with concentric limbs). I had also been researching meditation, and my two attempts before this were interesting but relatively uninteresting.
I was embroiled in my usual routine for the day; drinking lots of coffee and reading tons of stuff about myths, the swastika, occultism, etc. I decided to attempt a meditation after lunch, and so I laid in my bed with my eyes closed and my head tilted up as I had read about in Julius Evola's 'Introduction to Magic'.
I entered a state of limbo, or at least a meditational state that allowed me to visualize images. I entered a room that was very dark, with a light in the middle of it. I entered this lighted spot in the blackness and was greeted by a towering being that reminded me of those cheesy illustrations of Tall Whites. This being's face was a blur, as if it was moving back and forth at lightspeed. This will become important later.
I asked the being/entity what I should do, as I felt this was the most direct question one could ask a being on their first interaction with something like this (I had never experienced anything like this before - it felt like a lucid dream but very different). The being responded in two ways: he said something along the lines of 'do what you're doing already', combined with a direct reference (in my mind) to my recent practice of going deep into research on mythology and occultism.
I opened my eyes from the meditational state and immediately began googling things I thought might relate to the dream and the entity I encountered - things like "blurred face god", anything that I could use to link this to some sort of mythology. I came upon the multi-faced god Janus, who is a roman god of duality, gateways, time etc. I considered that perhaps I had spoken with an aspect of this god, and that his face being blurry was a 'real life' representation of his multiple heads seeing through time. Janus is linked with mirrors (gateways will also become important here), and a concept in science called chirality (this will also become important later). I spent an hour or so intensely researching Janus and other gods related to him and the concepts he was related to - from Isimud to Saint Christopher to the goddess Hekate. Hekate will become the true main character of this story.
I was in the zone. I had been researching for hours now and was going deep down the rabbit hole of research on myths relating to my dream, and I was having a great time. I lept up from my bed, in the style I always did (because I lay in bed while I use my laptop for the most part), and the full length mirror that had been sitting across from me, a mirror that had been in the apartment since we moved in, came crashing down to the ground and smashed into pieces.
My mind was racing - was this a sign from Janus? He was *the* god of mirrors and my mirror had just inexplicably fallen to the ground and smashed to pieces as soon as I broke my concentration from research on Janus himself. I cleaned up the pieces of glass and put them in a bag by the bed (bad choice, but this will turn out to be crucial later on).
The god that interested me most in relation to Janus was Hekate, because she was considered the gateway to magic in ancient greece. I had considered my 'awakening', and the nature of my meditational experience, to be a gateway of sorts to the world of magic. I found that she has a symbol, which is a concentric sun wheel or swastika type. Hekate is associated with dogs, which is a connection to Saint Christopher, who is also associated with travel and gateways in the same way Janus and Isimud are. In ancient Greece, Hekate was apparently invoked before every magical ritual as you had to connect with the underworld in order to do any magic. Hekate seemed to be a manifestation of the archetype of the primordial mother.
Through my finding of the concept of chirality, I had found metamaterials. I'm not a science guy, so this was really difficult and I still barely know what I'm talking about on this, but metamaterials are constructed by scientists in labs using carbon fibre shaped into specific shapes or 'symbols', and they can refract light negatively or in other strange ways. They are used to create early invisibility cloaks (and a bunch of other stuff but that's the most exciting sounding). Metamaterials can interact with light in such minute and fine ways that one could theoretically create a 'perfect lens' with metamaterials. This would allow a person to see bands of light that we are not yet able to see.
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